Once again, returning from the Dark Side 176.0

Sigh...

I am back from The Dark Side, and I am tired.

The phrase The Dark Side means different things to me. The first of course is reference to Darth Vader and the Dark Side! I am a movie nerd and I love that series.  So when I started really working on my mental health I started calling my depression The Dark Side. I feel like Darth Vader, full of dark thoughts, but basically just a lost soul.

Needless to say, I gained a little back, but in general I practiced maintenance.

I am doing something amazing! October 23, 2013 170

I...am walking! Outside! During the daytime! Where there are people!

I know it does not sound like anything, but really it is. I walk all the time, at night that is.

I started walking with my mom at my local park, (forest with maintained paths). Then one day...I decided to go walking before the sun went down. The rest is history.

Speaking of, I am going out right now.

Just some random pics... October 22, 2013 170

I have nothing to say today. My brain is blank. So here are some random pics

My flowering Crab Apple

Poppies from the side of my house

Felix the purring cat

Milo and R. (behind Milo)

Frodo and Samwise (have since passed on)

Queen Charlie (I got her from the SPCA when she was 5, and she lived for another 15 years)

Milo, Felix and Trouble (in the basket)

Milo (the big guy is mine)and Peanut (mom's dog)

Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde October 21, 2013 171.8

I was good for most of the day, then evening happened...

I decided I wanted to have a cheat day. OK, not a good idea!

I have got to learn how to do this better. I need to be able to have treats without eating like tomorow is the end of the world. Ok, I didnt eat thaaaat much, but I wanted to.

Its like I have two speeds. One is I am on a diet, dont even think of deviating from my diet. Then there is the other me. The one with no stop. Eat until my stomach hurts. Thats the one that needs work. If I cant control my Mr Hyde, I will just gain my weight back.

People that have motivated me so far.... October 18, 2013 171

I started thinking last night of the people who have helped me on my fat loss journey (85 lbs so far). I decided to make a list...


Me and my blog
Shaycarl 
Diane from Fit to the Finish
Life as I know it
My son

Its a short list I know, but the impact that they have had is awesome.

So I am sending out a big THANK YOU! to them and lots of cyber hugs too!