Sleeeep.... January 2, 2013 *207.0

Eeek! I weighed in at 207.0 lbs this morning. I had shrimp salsa last night, nom nom nom. Unfortunately,  it always screws with my poop cycle. TMI? Never! This morning I had an extra serving of dried plums aka prunes. We will see who laughs last, mwhaaa  mwhaaa. Any hoo, I ate my last boiled egg yesterday, remember too many cals and seriously not good to eat so much fat. I made an omelet with some yummy (glop) egg whites out of a carton. It was actually pretty good.

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Going back to sleeeep. I go through weeks sometimes months of insomnia. I am finally coming off one of those binges and wow, am I ever tired. I need to catch up on all my lost sleep. Which is cool, because I looove to sleep.

There is a funny/weird thing I do when I am in a diet. When I start to do it, I know I am going to make it. The sad part of all this, is that I have lost weight so many times that I actually have traditions. Sheeesh. Anyways, here it goes... I day dream before I sleep or anytime I am laying down, about how I will look like after I have lost x amount of weight. I imagine people's reactions to my weight loss, my feelings, my new clothes, my happiness levels, my energy. I imagine myself in my too big clothes, how proud I am of what I have done. I imagine how I move, how much more energy I have, how more outgoing I will be. I imagine I have someone in my life. My favorite one is the one that I hug my son, and he surrounds me, instead of me overwhelming him. Lovely.

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Today is going to be crazy at work. I will be doing alot of heavy lifting, moving, carrying and walking. I am tired already.

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Well I am as tired as I thought. It was not as hectic as I expected it to be. Still did alot of moving/lifting/bending/walking.

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My Goal Statement January 1, 2013

I have a goal for the year 2013. It is to reach my goal weight of 120 lbs by December 31, 2013!

Happy New Year!!! January 1, 2013 * 206.0

Happy New Year! It is officially January 1st 2013! How cool is that? I weighed in at 206.0 lbs this morning. This means that I start the New Year in a great place. I am soooo glad I started my diet when I was pumped. Who knows if I would have been pumped today?

Today I am not depressed that I gained weight over the holidays. Today I am not depressed that I could have done better. Today I am not depressed that I am starting a new diet. Today I am not depressed that I made a resolution to exercise everyday.

On the other hand, Ugh... I have to start my New Years Resolution. I have promised myself, that I will exercise everyday. I created a page, much like my Scale Obsession one, where I have 365 days listed. I will type what I did and for how long. How many times will I update it? You guessed it...everyday.

I have to walk/jog/dance/ workout video for at least  20 minutes or do body weight exercises for  10 minutes. In rain or shine. In sickness or in health. No matter what. I think I will also note if I hard time getting motivated, or how I felt that day. It will be like a mood/exercise page. Hmmm interesting.

For example, today I feel like a lazy pile of crap. I do not feel like doing a damn thing. I know I have to get up off my ass to go walk. Big double blah. Here goes my positive reinforcement mojo.

I love to exercise
I exercise everyday
I dont find excuses to not exercise
My dog loves it when I take him out for a walk
I love walking
I love walking outside
I love how I feel after I exercise

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My puppy Milo

Holy shitake, I had to force myself to go. It was -11 and very windy. Brrrr. Milo was very happy to go for a walk. I only ended up walking for 20 minutes. That means I have to go back out for another walk, or I can do some body weight exercises. I will see how I feel later. I have to go to mom's for supper and help her take down her tree.

She plans on eating tacos, and there is no way in hell I am eating that. No way! I made myself Shrimp Salsa. Nom Nom Nom. It is shrimp, tomatoes, onion, parsley, bit o salt, olive oil (itty bitty) and lime juice.   Cal count on that is 291. Not bad.

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Happy New Years Eve! December 31, 2012 *206.0

Well today is the last day of 2012. I weighed in at 206.0 lbs, a nice even number. It was not a great year for me, but I am happy to say I love the way it is ending. I am so glad that I decided to start my diet at the beginning of December instead of January. I am ending the year on a positive note, and starting 2013 on an excellent one!

I went to a few friends houses (work too) over the last couple of days and there are treats every where. I have not succumbed. I will not either. I know I will have to relax my approach to my diet, but I am not ready right now. I am still at the baby step stages. I am the type of person who if I eat one chip, I eat the whole freakin bag. I am so proud of myself and what I am doing that I dont want to jeopardize my goal.

Will I relax next week? Next month? A few months? I have no idea. I may only relax when I get to my goal weight. I already know what my goal is for 2014. My goal for next year is to maintain my goal weight. That is how sure I am that I am going to reach my goal before the end of 2013. My problem is not losing the weight, though it is very hard and frustrating. It is keeping it off. I have never been able to do that.

That is why my goal next year will be to maintain. I think that will be an even harder goal then losing 100 lbs.

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I am finally home, after a supper long hard day. We were crazy busy. All the liquor stores in our area closed yesterday, because of the storm. So everyone who didnt shop yesterday, shopped today. All I can say is...WOW!

The manager brought in pizza, I had one piece of the veggie pizza. I had calorie counted it and it came in at 271. Not bad, not great. The only thing is I think it was high in salt. I didnt drink any water today. For one thing, it was too busy to drink water. The other reason...it was too busy to go pee all the time. Speaking of, I should go drink some water with a muscle relaxer. My back is freakin killing me.

Glug glug. Ah!

It is going to be January 1st tomorrow, which means it is time to start the second part of my goal. I have decided that my New Years resolution will be to exercise everyday. Shocking! I don't think I have ever heard of anyone doing that.

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Snow Storm December 29, 2012 *206.2

Holy crap on toast! I weighed in at 206.2 lbs. I didn't see that coming. As per my Scale Obsession page, that makes my total loss for the week a whopping 3.8 lbs!! I am eating all my calories, I never, I mean never cheat. I work really hard at work. There are days that I almost crawl home. Sometimes I work extra hard, to have a harder work out. That is really what it is. I bend over, pick up. I straighten and repeat. I do that from 2 hours to 7 hours a day. I don't do that every day though. Some days I just stand around. Even those days include exercise. I move and bag heavy items. My arms (under the cover of fat) are hard as rock. I would say I have heavy lifting days at least 2-3 times a week. Still...206.2!!!

We are in the midst of another snow storm. I don't have to work today, but I do have to shovel all freakin day. Its a good thing I want to exercise.


I have an appointment later today to get my gel nails done. I can't cancel, because it will be another few weeks before I can get in. They are way past due, and 2 are about to fall off. I just started to get my nails done, and I have absolutely fallen in love with them.

I got the ones on the left done in the middle of November. They remind me of a Santa hat. The ones on the right I got done on the first week of December. They are Christmas lights. The lady who does them, painted all the lights and cord my hand!




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Tada! These are my new nails. They actually look much better in person.







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Just came back in from shoveling. I think I shoveled for about 45 minutes and the neighbor came out to snowblow the rest...thank God for nice neighbors. My back hurts, and I am super tired. Going to go to bed early. I have a huge day tomorrow. The store closed today, so that means we are going to be ape shit crazy. Liquor stores usually are on New Years Eve.

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