Better today then yesterday January 6, 2013 *204.2

I weighed in at 204.2 lbs today. My weight is coming off slow and steady. I really wish it would come off faster. Fantasy I know, but I still wish it. The other day I saw myself in a mirror window, and I was so disappointed. I imagine myself smaller so much now, that it was sad to see the real me.  I want to wake up and be smaller.

I have found a whole slew of blogs that I subscribed to. Some are inspiring, some are total foodies, some are fitness freaks and some are just fun. I am very happy that I found out about blogging and other blogs. In the end it will be this tool that keeps me on my path. Well other than me, I mean. I write in my blog aka on line diary, everyday. I read other bloggers' blogs, and I stay inspired. I am in the middle of a win win situation.

I was at work the other day, and someone came up beside me and said, "you are losing weight aren't you? Looking good." Very first person to mention anything. I noticed that I am less..puffy. My bra fits better, my clothes, I don't feel like an expanding marshmallow in a too small bag.

I made gluten free air cookies today. Ugh....back to the drawing board on that one. I substituted too many things and they came out gross. All my own fault.

I downloaded the menu planner from  Fit to the Finish menu planning worksheet. Total awesomeness! I love how simple it is. I think I will also try the grocery list one too. I love having all these resources at my fingertips, ones that I didn't even know were out there.

Thank goodness I feel like moving today. I was a total slug yesterday. I don't like when I get like that. I don't want to move, go outside, be seen by anyone. A total blah day.

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Chicken Tortilla Soup

I found a recipe for Chicken Tortilla Soup  at hungryhealthyhappy this week. I decided to make it today and it was delish!  Really, seriously delish.

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What is the scale gonna say today? January 4, 2013 *204.6

Its early in the morning and I am wondering what the scale will throw at me today. I have been all over the place, weight wise, all week. I predict I will be 205 lbs this morning.

I just finished reading Fit to the Finish post on meal planning and it was like a light bulb went off. Write out a menu for the week, and do a grocery list. When you think on how anal I am, I can't believe I have not thought of this myself. I also liked the idea of having a couple of the days as set meals. Like pizza night, or spaghetti night, or making enough to have leftovers for lunch the next day. I was kind of doing that, by making meatloaf or extra sauce and freezing it. This is going to take it to the next level!

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Ha ha ha...I am 204.6 lbs today! Coolio.

I took some pictures of me this morning and posted them in the progress pics page. If I was not already on a diet, I would after seeing how bad I look. Yikes! Anyhoo, last night I decided to try on a pair of pjs that I have had for at least 3 years. I never even bothered to try them on as they said they were XL. I saw them last night and said, why the hell not. So on they went. Guess what? They fit perfectly. Not too small either. Nice! That made me pretty happy.

I told my son about my daydream where I hug him and I am not bigger than him. He does not get it. Thats ok, I do. When he was a baby, or still a young kid, it was natural for me to be bigger than him.  He grew this year and is over 5' 11"! I dont want to still be bigger than him by 100 lbs, 80 lbs!

I think I might take a picture of me dressed for work. I want to look back and see what I looked like when I am out in public.  In nearly all the before (on purpose) pictures the people are wearing sad expressions, no makeup and bad hair. Whereas the after pictures they have makeup, hair done all up, nice clothes and are smiling.

Geez I have taken more pictures of myself in the past few weeks than I have in a few years. I am going to become a camera junkie  ;)

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Ugh! So I took some pictures and I immediately deleted them. I seriously cant believe I look that bad. I guess that is what happens when you refuse to look in the mirror for a couple of years.

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