Finally! October 17, 2013 173

I finally cancelled my internet service with Rogers! I have been saying I was going to do that for months, but I could not get the gumption to do it. I hate calling a call center and fighting. It makes me anxious and sick. Weird I know.

I wont go on and on about how much I hate them, or how bad I feel they have treated me over the last the last year, but you can imagine.

Anyhoo....I feel like crap today. I dont know why either. I think I am getting stress headaches, and my blood sugar may be too low. No idea.

I am also being a complete lazy bum today. Because I am feeling dizzy? Or am I just wallowing in my own laziness? Both I think.

Don't...wanna...move...January 5, 2013 *204.6

Still 204.6 lbs, and all I want to do today is sleep. I have no motivation to move, or be active or be seen. I have already gone for one nap today, and want to go for another one. Luckily I have to go to work, or I would be crawling back into bed. I also forced myself to go shovel my driveway. The only reason I did was because I made a promised myself to exercise at least once a day. I swear that is the only reason why I even moved out of bed.

I do not even feel like writing in my blog today. One good thing though...I never once felt like cheating or slipping or ignoring my diet. So all in all, even though I am acting the slug, I am very proud of myself.

Until tomorrow.

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Blah, blah December 7, 2012

Well I did pretty good food wise yesterday. But when I got home I was hungry!!! I usually eat alot when I get home, so I knew I would have a problem. I didnt go crazy with eating but I have to really work on that. I counted everything (calories) so I could see what I ate and where I have to work on my food intake. Either way, very good first day. Today is going great too, already getting my withdrawal headaches, which is good. I am a pro at dieting, so I know I need a few good days before I get completely in the zone. I am glad I am doing this before Christmas, because who knows how much more I would have gained before the new year. This way I will have lost some for Christmas and already be on my way to a new me before the new year. Blah blah blah. Hey I am trying to convince myself so shut up!

So here goes more positive thinking

I am doing great
I only eat when I am hungry
I am not ugly
I do not say bad things about myself in my head
I am happy
I dont mind looking in the mirror