Doing good! 186 lbs

So far so good. I have cut out all white stuff out of my diet again. No flour (especially wheat), sugar, processed foods whenever possible.

Looking at life on the other side of 175 lbs September 6, 2013 175.2

Wow do I feel different! I went for a walk last night, for the first time in way too long. I walked pretty fast and I didn't feel tired. I didn't feel like a was dragging myself up the hills. What a shock. Not carrying around all that extra weight makes such a huge difference.

At work, I try to walk with my chest out, stomach in (pretty hard to do) and with a more confident attitude. Fake it til you believe it.

I look at my naked body and I see two things (not what you think!) I see how much more I have to lose and I feel hope. I can see and feel how far I have gone, and that I can do the same for the rest of my weight.

I feel almost pretty again.

Can I do it?

So I am 175 lbs as of today. I have 115 days left til the end of 2013. Can I realistically reach my New Years Resolution Goal weight?

 I started off at 222 lbs and I wanted to lose 100 lbs.

222 lbs-100 lbs=122 lbs

I am now 175 lbs.

175 lbs-122 lbs = 53 lbs.

That means I have to lose 53 lbs in 115 days.

53lbs/115 days=.46 lbs

Which means I have to lose .46 lbs a day!

Or

115 days/7 days in a week=16 weeks
53lbs/16weeks=3.31lbs

I would need to lose 3.31 lbs a week to make my goal.

I think 140 lbs is more realistic. I have been 140 lbs and I felt and looked good.

175lbs-140lbs=35lbs
115 days/35lbs=.3lbs per day
35lbs/16 weeks=2.18lbs per week

That is doable.

Now, I totally realize that life happens and my body probably will not cooperate and stick to my math genius! If I dont fall off the wagon and wonder aimlessly, and my body does not hit any plateaus, and I stay super strict and maintain total dedication for over 115 days...

Ya, not going to happen. So how about I continue doing the best that I can! Stay strong and motivated and be at peace with myself. Celebrate all the good things and live through the bad.

Now that is more like it! July 2, 2013 *184.6

I weighed in at 184.6 today, which is more realistic. Yes it is awesome to see a huge weight loss. But when you know its not real, you know the other shoe is gonna drop.

I am following my old diet, and its like coming home. Its funny how following a thought out plan, watching what you eat becomes so much easier. I go on to MyfitnessPal early in the morning, and plan out my food for the day. That way, when I get hungry the decisions already been made. I dont chose food when I am bored, angry, sad or hungry.

I find when I regulate what I am eating, it bleeds over to other parts of my life. I have more gumption to clean the house, or work in my gardens. I try to look at everything as an opportunity to exercise or get away from the fridge.

Another cool side effect, is that I actually don't feel as hungry. Or think about food as much. When I am not following my plan, I thing of food all day long. Seriously! What I want, how I want it, should I eat it, when I am going to eat it. On and on and on.

When I am on track, I ask myself are you really hungry right now? Or are you bored, or do you want to eat because you usually do when you see this person, or sit here, or ....

Did good Jo July 30, 2013 *185.2 lbs

Did good today. Really worked on positive thoughts, and planning my food intake. Going through the headaches from carb withdrawl.

Not much energy, tired, depressed.

Yikes! Juy 29, 2013 *187.2 lb

Sooo.

I have not been doing good. I keep on saying I am going to try, getting back on track, going to stop eating bad...uhg.

Well enough with all that crap. This past week I have been slowly getting my over eating under control. I am trying to pay attention tot why I am eating. Am I bored, tired, angry or sad. It is slow going. I have to start all over again.

Luckily for me, my IBS has kicked in, and given me a wake up call. I nearly did not make it to the bathroom in time, eeek! It all stems from all the bread, pasta and cereal I am eating. Nothing makes my IBS react like they can.

I am trying to recreate what I did to get started last time. I did alot of positive reinforcement, which helped HUGE. I read weight loss books and blogs, which helped me get in the right mind set. I also weighed myself every single day. I planned out my meals. I made my meals boring, so that I would not be tempted to over eat. I ate the same thing daily, so there would be no guess work. I did that until I stopped being hungry all the time.

Well it looks like I have a plan.

Weigh myself daily
Positive reinforcement
Read weight loss blogs/books
plan my daily diet
Log all my food...All of it!
write in my blog
Exercise

Today was the first day I felt fat in a long time. It made me really sad, upset, angry, depressed, hopeless...hungry.

I had lost a total of 74 lbs, gained back 8 lbs. I feel stronger after writing all this down. So here goes...

Fell, then decided to roll around in the muck! Mother F'r! June 26, 2013 *186.5 lbs

WTF!

Yup, thats right. I gained some weight back.

Here are a list of excuses

*I got too cocky
*I stopped planning
*Diet food cost too much
*I changed my diet around...WTH was I thinking?
*I started nibbing
*I got bitch slapped with life
*I started eating my danger foods...WTH was I thinking?
*I moved in with my mom during my bathroom remodel
*I ate too much, too often
*I stopped weighing myself everyday

Sigh...

...Only reason I am writing this, is because I am back on track. Starting from the beginning again. So positive thoughts again.

I am not hungry...all the time!
I do not eat when I am bored
I do not eat after supper
I do not nibble
I do not over eat

Slow and steady wins the race? January 13, 2013 *202.0

I weighed in at 202.0 lbs today. Slow and steady wins the race...right? I still want to be the Hare!

I am the one on the left. I want to be the one on the right.

Water... January 3, 2013 *206.2

I weighed in at 206.2 today. I am a little disappointed, but really I know I am down a bit more than that. I love that I am weighing myself everyday. I feel more in control of my 'diet' this way. I do not let my weigh ins control my mood at all. I was kind of scared I would. I get a little disappointed, obviously. At the same time this is helping me learn my body. 

I know I have not been drinking as much water as I should. I think I will do a schedule for myself about that. Yes I am anal like that. Hmmm one before breakfast then some green tea with breakfast. One before lunch, one with lunch. One before supper, one with supper. Ok that makes 6. That is doable. I can drink two during the evening, making a total of 8. Rock on!


I decided to go over my diet plans, and everything I am doing right or wrong. Here is a list of all the good things:

I stay under my daily calorie allowance
My meals are planned and well thought out
I eat fruits and veggies, dairy and protein
I have cut out all white stuff, like sugar/salt/bread/cereal/pasta/rice
I do not eat sweets/treats/pop
I look at all the food that goes in my body
I take a long time to eat my food/take breaks as I eat if I need to
I check cal/salt/sugar/protein amounts
I check labels to see if item as fructose, or unpronounceable ingredients
I drink herbal/green tea
I make all my meals from scratch
I use no salt ingredients
I use Pam to cook with
I do not snack or cheat
I do not graze/taste my food as I cook
I never give into temptation

Now for the things I need to work on:

More exercise/planned
Better sleep schedule
More exercise
More water
Stop thinking life will be better as soon as I lose weight!

***

I checked my BMI score, and using my weight of 206 lbs my new BMI is 33.2.  Put that into perspective. A BMI between 30.0-34.9  puts you in the obese class I.  Which is awesome when you think of it. When I started last month I was Obese class II! I input different weights to find out how much I needed to lose before I was in the overweight class. I have to be 185 lbs. Groan. Another 20 lbs before I am not considered Obese, just overweight. 

Happy New Year!!! January 1, 2013 * 206.0

Happy New Year! It is officially January 1st 2013! How cool is that? I weighed in at 206.0 lbs this morning. This means that I start the New Year in a great place. I am soooo glad I started my diet when I was pumped. Who knows if I would have been pumped today?

Today I am not depressed that I gained weight over the holidays. Today I am not depressed that I could have done better. Today I am not depressed that I am starting a new diet. Today I am not depressed that I made a resolution to exercise everyday.

On the other hand, Ugh... I have to start my New Years Resolution. I have promised myself, that I will exercise everyday. I created a page, much like my Scale Obsession one, where I have 365 days listed. I will type what I did and for how long. How many times will I update it? You guessed it...everyday.

I have to walk/jog/dance/ workout video for at least  20 minutes or do body weight exercises for  10 minutes. In rain or shine. In sickness or in health. No matter what. I think I will also note if I hard time getting motivated, or how I felt that day. It will be like a mood/exercise page. Hmmm interesting.

For example, today I feel like a lazy pile of crap. I do not feel like doing a damn thing. I know I have to get up off my ass to go walk. Big double blah. Here goes my positive reinforcement mojo.

I love to exercise
I exercise everyday
I dont find excuses to not exercise
My dog loves it when I take him out for a walk
I love walking
I love walking outside
I love how I feel after I exercise

***

My puppy Milo

Holy shitake, I had to force myself to go. It was -11 and very windy. Brrrr. Milo was very happy to go for a walk. I only ended up walking for 20 minutes. That means I have to go back out for another walk, or I can do some body weight exercises. I will see how I feel later. I have to go to mom's for supper and help her take down her tree.

She plans on eating tacos, and there is no way in hell I am eating that. No way! I made myself Shrimp Salsa. Nom Nom Nom. It is shrimp, tomatoes, onion, parsley, bit o salt, olive oil (itty bitty) and lime juice.   Cal count on that is 291. Not bad.

***

Yup, Really. December 22,2012 *211.2

I am very surprised how well I am taking not losing weight. I have studied my body and its weird peccadilloes for a very long time.  I am a 100% sure that this is water weight from my Red Tide of Pain. My guess is (I hope to God), that in a day or two, that I will have a jump in weight loss. I say...about 5 pounds.

I have not been snacking, I have not cheated, I have not gone over my cals, I have not gone under my cals. I have been eating nutritiously.

The other option is that I have hit a plateau. I have lost weight a few  times and I seem to hit plateaus that correspond with how I gain weight. Here goes the idea. When I start regaining my weight, I seem to stay at a certain weight for awhile then jump up. When I lose weight, it goes the other way. There is one at 230, 210, 197, 180, 165, and 150. It is sad that it has happened enough times that I actually know and remember those.

The hardest one will be 197 lbs. That was my last one and I was there for a whole month, and I did P90x twice a day and walked for 2 hours every day. Nothing got my weight down. Looking back, I see that I was not eating enough, that I was exercising too much. I also realize that I was super muscular. Under all my fat, I was rock hard every where. I did not take that into account. That I was losing weight, but building muscle.

It will be interesting to see what the next few days brings. It will not be a deal breaker, because it does not matter if I dont lose 5 lbs in a couple of days. I am in for the long haul.

I do not lose faith or will power because I am not losing as much as I think I should
I will not snack on Christmas treats
I am in this for the long haul
I am proud of the effort I have put into my new goal

I have to start thinking what my New Years Resolution is going to be. Hmmm, maybe exercise everyday? Maybe 50 sit ups a day, or 50 squats, or both? Think think think.

You have GOT to be kidding! December 18, 2012 *212.6

What!? 212.6 lbs. It sure as hell isnt because I have cheated! I have been working like a crazy person at work. I better go look to see if my period is due soon....

...I started my last period on November 25th,  I usually go about every 21 days, but my system has been screwy lately. Either way,  I always gradually gain weight (water) for a week or more before my period. Its got to be that.

I do not get discouraged
I do not let the number on the scale get me down
I do not lose will power because I am not losing according to my big plan!!!!
I am happy at how well I am doing
I am proud of myself for not giving into all the Christmas treats that are around work
I do not snack at night

The good thing about a diet, for me anyways, is that I make a huge effort to eat better. More fruits and veggies. I make sure the carbs I eat are as good as possible. For example, instead of white bread, I am eating Dempster's Ancient Grains. That be some serious heavy s%*t!

High Fructose Corn Syrup

I watched  a program the other day about High Fructose, so  I am making an effort to not eat anything with that in it.

***

Very Hungry today. I am going to look over what I ate today, and what times I ate. Should not be feeling this hungry.

***

Looked back and I didnt have my regular toast and almond butter which is 300 cals. I had scrambled eggs and it was only 180 cals.  So I didnt eat enough.

***

I went for a nice walk after supper. I was hungry and my son left almost all his food on his plate. Normally I would pick off of it, this time I just threw it out! Then I went out. It was already dark and pretty chilli, but I am glad I did. It was nice to look at all the Christmas Lights. I think I will pick a street that is all lit up for Christmas and walk there the next time.

***

Wonder what I will weigh tomorrow? Will I keep going up? Or will the million times I went to the bathroom make a difference? Hmmmm? For my own sanity, I sure hope I go down! It doesnt matter though. I am in for the long haul. I am going to lose weight. It just wont be fast. What is that stupid saying...slow and steady wins the race. Damn it.

***

Damn Christmas party! December 15, 2012 *211.8 :(

I weighed in at 211.8 lbs this morning. I am a little obsessed that I didnt go down. But I knew this was coming. Its not like I can continue to loose a pound a day! Just have to convince my inner voice of that. Of course to make the day even more trying...I am going to my work Christmas party, and wow I do not want to go! I know I have to have cheat days, and try to live my life while I am on this journey. But feels too rickety, too new, fresh and easily broken. I am not stupid. I have been in this position before. All excited about losing weight, everything going relatively easy. I know what it feels like to hit a plateau and not be able to get through it.Then slowly loosing will power and interest in bettering myself.

I have included my son this time, and I am keeping this journal. I hope, strike that. I am very happy and committed to see this journey through, but like I said, this is just the start. To help me have a good idea of what I am getting myself into, I did a calorie count on the food that is going to be there. Its a small party, and we all wrote down what we were bringing. I am bringing a nacho dip, that is made out of sour cream, cream cheese, salsa and shredded cheese. Lets just say that just one pkg of cream cheese is over 900 cals! If I have a couple of dips it will be over 150 cals.

I was a little depressed about that.  I tried to back out of going to party, explaining that I was on a new DIET! and did not want to risk going. I told them about the cals of my dip, and they said something that made a light bulb go off. I am a very smart person. Really I am. Sometimes I get so caught up in my brain, that common sense does not enter it. You know what they said?  "So...like dont eat it! There are going to be shrimp and veggie trays, eat from those!"

Sigh, brilliant isn't it? Duh, right I dont have to eat it.

I am not going to eat everything that is offered
I am strong
I am staying true to my diet because that is more important than food
I am strong
I can picture myself a smaller me

There is going to be some drinks, and I have done a calorie count on that too. I am going to bring my own egg nog (light) and some skim milk. I wont be making a big production of it, since I am bringing a bag with my dip and chips.

Happy Dance...December 13, 2012 *212.4

Yippeeee! 212.4 on my new scale!!!! I checked with my other scale and it shows almost 2 pounds difference. I will be getting rid of it, because I dont want to play that game.





I am so proud of the effort I am putting in
I can do this
I do not eat at night
I do not eat anything after I have eaten super
I do not pick at left overs (hard)
***
I spent all day yesterday transferring all my info onto a new email address, new blog, new google +, and new picassa.  Sheeesh, just because they did nt like my nick name. I didnt want my real name out there, so I put my nickname as my name. Note to self, dont do that again.

I did great yesterday. I did not over eat, kept to my meal plan. The only real upset I had was that my new scale added on a few pounds. Its like I have to re-lose the same pounds I worked to take off. I took a few pics of myself to show the before and after. Yuk, is all I can say. I will be wearing the same clothes each time so I can see the difference clearly. Unfortunately, the only white shirt I found was wrinkle shitty mess. Next time I will make sure to be more presentable. It is not easy taking pics of yourself... hands free...with a timer. I may post later I dont know.

  I measured my parts and here is the damage

Hips 48
Boobage 45
Waist 42
Thigh 29
Arm 14
Current Weight 212.4
Can only go up from here right?

Its really early in the morning, so I will wait a bit before weighing myself. I am going to use both machines to see how big of a difference there is. I found a pic of fat that helps keep it in perspective though. I lost at least 5 lbs since I started, and this is what it looks like...

I had a hard time believing it, because I dont feel like I have lost that. So I went to look at a 5 lbs of sugar, 5 lbs of potatoes and it is totally real. Or a more accurate example would be  a pound of butter x 5. Holy crap, I am carrying alot of extra weight. No wonder I am tired.

 

Snow Day! December 10, 2012 *218

Snow Day! My son came in, yelling NO SCHOOL! 

Sigh...yeah. Oh well. So took a shower and weighed myself a total of like 50 times. First time I weighed myself it showed 215, then 214, 211, 218, 217, 215. I decided to go with 215. I think I am going to spend money on a good scale.

I made chili, cause what is better than soup or stew or a chili on a cold snowy day? I put carrots, onions, celery, bokchoy (left over), peppers all in a chopper/blender and pureed the shit out of all the veggies. This is in hopes that my son will have some without knowing what is in there.

I only eat at a set time (two hours between meals)
I do not eat when I am bored
I make my meals
I do not take easy way out and eat take out

***

Well well well! I did verry good today. Didnt snack, had to convince myself of that once or twice. My chili was too good. I had a hard time sticking to one bowl. But I  kept on repeating I only eat at a set time (two hours between meals), and that actually helped.

I think I may use that more often. Like I said I always think of food, and I am usually planning my next meal before I finish eating the first meal.

I do not think of food all the time
I stop myself thinking of food all the time
I think of something else everytime I start thinking of what I could eat


There was another book I read about eating every two to three hours and eating 300 cal meals. I did that during my last diet and I have to say it worked really well. I think I had the most problem with portion control. Try to create a 300 cal meal that is a balanced! I got pretty good at it, before I quit.

Hmmm can I even remember all the diets I have been on?

anorexic diet (worked really well, gave me IBS tho, oh and lifelong health problems)
bulimia diet (didnt work at all)
4 minute diet
Simply for Life diet
Weight Watchers diet
Diamonds diet
Fasting diet (actually felt really good with that one)
No carb diet (bad)
Paleo Diet
Basic calorie counting diets
No diet (worse one)
Exercise til I drop diet (bad bad idea)

Day 3 December 8, 2012

So had another great day. Its 8:30 at night and I have not snacked. Though I feel kind of hungry I have not gone in the kitchen to eat anything. I went to visit my grandmother, and that usually means that I eat while I am there. Stayed out of her kitchen too. Yeah me!

Did a lot of reading, and cleaning and I was a bit cranky and supper tired. That is to be expected since I have cut out a huge amount of carbs from my diet.

I can do this
I do not get tempted to break my diet
I can do this
I look good today
I do not eat when I am bored
I do not think about eating just after I have eaten
I look at labels so that I make conscious choices about what I am eating

Tomorrow, I must go walking!!! No excuse will be accepted!!! And I have to do a couple of exercises, from P90x!!!

I love walking
I love walking
I love exercising

More positve Mojo December 8, 2012

Did really good today. Still have to get through the evening. Fighting the urge to go eat!!!! I am going to have to give up my timmies. I want to eat my calories instead of drink them.

I look good
I keep positve
I do not have a hard time loosing weight

***

K,   I succumbed at 7:30 tonight. I ate a chicken drumstick and veggies. I was feeling kind of bad about it, but I  Logged in my food for the whole day, and  I was only 100 cals over. Yippee for me.

***

Yeah me!  I think I will clean the kitchen before I even eat. Nah that doesnt make sense.  Make supper, make a plate for me and my son. Then put away the left overs! Out of sight out of mind. Anyways I feel hungry a bit, but I am playing mind games with myself. Goes like this. Oooo I feel hungry! Hahaha means you are loosing weight! Right on! Good for you!

So everytime I saw myself in the mirror today I tried to be postive. I usually dont look for one thing. If I do, I say shitty things, like holy fuck! Or damn you look fat. Or that cant be me :(  So today when I saw myself, I said things like...you will look better tomorrow, cause you are working so hard today. Its ok Josee, imagine what a difference 10 lbs will make. By Christmas you will have lost 10 lbs and you will be very proud of yourself! You can do it! Seriously I was saying that all day.

I can do this
This is not impossible
I am hungry, but I am not starving
I am not taking needless trips into the kitchen
I will not get depressed if I dont loose weight everyday
I will not snack at night!!!!!

Blah, blah December 7, 2012

Well I did pretty good food wise yesterday. But when I got home I was hungry!!! I usually eat alot when I get home, so I knew I would have a problem. I didnt go crazy with eating but I have to really work on that. I counted everything (calories) so I could see what I ate and where I have to work on my food intake. Either way, very good first day. Today is going great too, already getting my withdrawal headaches, which is good. I am a pro at dieting, so I know I need a few good days before I get completely in the zone. I am glad I am doing this before Christmas, because who knows how much more I would have gained before the new year. This way I will have lost some for Christmas and already be on my way to a new me before the new year. Blah blah blah. Hey I am trying to convince myself so shut up!

So here goes more positive thinking

I am doing great
I only eat when I am hungry
I am not ugly
I do not say bad things about myself in my head
I am happy
I dont mind looking in the mirror

Fake it til ya make it December 6, 2012 *216.6

Ok, so I kind of did what I said I would. I am actually proud of myself . I got up, weighed myself (of course after I went to the bathroom). I had to weigh myself in more than one place. The first spot, in my room, I weighed in at 219. So I went to my usual spot, the bathroom, right in front of the door. I have tried (in the past) every single spot in my house to see where I weighed the least. Right in front of the counter and in front of the bathroom door is by far the best place. I weighed in at 216. 6 there. So I had some water, boiled some eggs while I took a shower. I said positive things to myself. Oh right I have to write some positive things now.

I am loosing weight
I find it easy to loose weight
I love myself
I am a happy person
I only eat when I am hungry

That last one is the one I have been repeating over and over again. I am trying to convince my mind that I am not hungry all the time. How can I still be hungry even after I have eaten? I usually am. I think about food before, during and after eating. I am usually planing on what to eat next before I am even finished eating. If I go out to eat, I will usually eat something before hand so that I dont eat too fast while I am out, or feel to hungry while waiting for the food. I act like a starvation victim.

Ok so I have not exercised yet today, though I will be working hard when I go to work.. Really that is just a lazy thought! I got caught up in the internet allllll morning. I have to seriously think about cutting back on that. I knew while I was doing it that I should be shutting the computer down. What I was watching wasnt even that great, or life changing. It was like I was focusing on that instead of dealing with life. Hmmm was that an Epiphany? Yup, I think it was. I know I did use it as a tool to stay out of the kitchen. I have got to use exercise to do that though.

Another thing I read awhile back, was to visualize yourself thin. I lost alot of weight when I was younger and I did that all the time. It works! Every time I was hungry I would imagine I was loosing weight. When I went to bed at night and I wanted to eat, I pictured myself all hot and skinny. Over and over again.When I started to loose weight I tried on smaller clothes that I had put away, and imagine myself in smaller and smaller clothes. It was like being on a roller coaster ride all by myself. No in my own world, where I was living and talking and imagining a whole life in my brain. When you are in that place (the zone), I had no problem not wanting to eat all the time. Or if I did want to eat, I would not, because that meant I was going to loose more weight.

I am an all or nothing kind of gal. Or out of sight out of mind. When I am on a diet, I can weigh myself a million times a day. I can obsess about loosing loosing loosing. When I am not dieting, I totally avoid the scale, open the fridge like a famine victim. I refuse to look in the mirror, let alone talk to myself in a positive manner. I usually say things (in my head) like, fuck me! God Josee. What the hell is wrong with you? Well you f%$#ed up, try again tomorrow. Since you already f%$#ed up, might as well go crazy apeshit. F%$# you are fat! Holy crap you are fat and ugly. OMG, your eyes are so small now, because of your fat face.

I love myself
I am loosing weight
I can do this
I love myself
I am not hungry

Starting over again December 5, 2012 *219

Starting over again

Here we go again. Its 11:09 on December 5th 2012.  I restarted my profile on MyfitnessPal, and updated my current weight.. Blah. I read some of my blog posts from a year ago and wow I was doing great! I had lost 50+ pounds, then bam!!! All in the shitter. Yeah yeah, I have a whole bunch of excuses. I could go on forever. Depression, anxiety, fear, but mainly I think its because I am lazy. So how do you fight being lazy? I am not sure.

During my last weight loss attempt,  I read a book, that said you have to keep on saying positive things to yourself. You keep on saying them even though you really dont believe them. You say them until you believe them. I had done that, and wrote all these things down on my cell phone. I would read them to myself over and over again during the day. I could feel it working. My phone has since died, so I dont remember everything I wrote. Hmmmm.You have to say them in the present tense...like I am full of energy, I love to walk, I exercise every day.

So here goes my new list.

I write in my blog everyday, because I can see my progress.
I am not lazy
I am full of energy
I love to exercise
I walk every day
I find it easy to loose weight
I love myself
I have no problem looking in a mirror
I am not a quitter
I eat proper meals
I do not eat take out
I am not hungry
I only eat when I am hungry
I do not eat when I a bored
I do not eat when I am scared or tired
I do not eat when I am depressed
I drink my 8 glasses of water a day
I do not quit 


I will copy and paste and add as I think of more.

So I am going to start my diet tonight! Even though I am going to bed. When I wake up tomorrow, I am going drink a glass of water with a bit of lemon. I am going to log into MFP and figure out what I should eat for breakfast. Then I am going to go for a walk. When I come back I am going to have another glass of water while I log onto MFP again to figure what I am going to eat for the rest of the week and go shopping to get the right food! That is my plan and I am going to stick to it.