First day of school September 3, 2013 176.2

Finally! First day of school has arrived. My son is off to school, and I am sitting here enjoying a nice quiet work free day. Ahhh! lovely. Did I mention it is raining too?

I am still alive and going strong May 15, 2013 * 179.8 lbs

I am so Happy

I am under 180 lbs! 

When I started this journey, one of my biggest fears was that I would regain my weight. I am not as afraid anymore. These past few months I have been losing and maintaining my weight. I am not going crazy and obsessing about it either (first time for everything)!

I have reached a weight that I am comfortable with and I don't feel like people are staring at the fat chick anymore. When I look in the mirror,  I see the pretty girl I used to be.
Over the years I have built up quite a stockpile of smaller clothes and I am fitting them all, if not tooo small for some of them. I have been going through all my clothes and ruthlessly getting rid off all the big clothes. I cant wait til I have to get rid of my smaller clothes.

I go out every now and then, and I take the time to make good food choices. If the restaurant does not have them, I don't go. Period.  I have made my diet apart of my life. It truly is not a diet anymore. I am making it a part of the rest of my life kind of diet.

The reason I am making it? Two reasons. 1.   If you falter, restart right away. Not tomorrow, not Monday...right away. 2. When I am not losing, I am practicing maintenance. I do not have plateaus. I have real life maintenance training. That's why I am not afraid anymore. (Thanks Diane).

OMG! March 22, 2013 *187.2 lbs

I can't believe how much weight I have lost so far. I also cant believe I did it without going all psycho bitch too. I am actually following a healthy diet, no starvin' or pukin' involved. Yeah me!

I always start out with good intentions. I will not go nuts, I will not obsess, I will stay true to my diet, I will not give up. Like any NYR, that usually lasts for a month, then Crazy Obsessive Jo comes ridding in. Let me tell ya, Crazy Obsessive Jo is not a good thing.

C.O. Jo does things like cut her cals to less than 500 a day. She also does fasting, or exercising for 4 hours a day. When that gets too much, C.O. Jo slinks out of the picture and leaves me to face another failed diet, with a few more pounds too.

I dont know what this new me should be called. Adult Jo? Planner Jo? Never give up Jo? You go Jo? Hmm, I will have to think on it.

I still do not have the courage to take pics of me. I imagine that will be something I will have to work on. Maybe I will make that a mini goal reward. Though the thought of it makes me want to vomit. I will try to look at it in a more positive manner. I guess anything that is not vomit will do.

My house is a mess, but I am happy! March 19, 2013 *187.8 lbs

I dont have much to report. My mood is great,  I am walking in the light. I am calm, cool, and loosing weight. I weighed in today at 187.8 lbs and that makes a grand total of 68 lbs lost from my highest weight. A total of 33.2 lbs since I started my 2013 goal!

I am so proud of myself March 7, 2013 *189.2

Well well well. I am 189.2 lbs as of today! I am so proud of myself. I went through some of my first posts and I can see alot of differences between then and now. I am more sure of myself, and my diet. My inner bitch voice is not as nasty, and I am starting to see the pretty me in the mirror. It has been a long time since I have seen her.

I try to think positive/motivational thoughts every day. I used to have to write them down and reread them through out the day. Now I just review them inside my head. For example:

I can do this
I am going to reach my goal
I am Happy
I do not eat when I am bored/mad/happy/to fit in
I do not eat when I am sad/scared/anxious/tired
I will not stop til I reach my goal
I will not stop even if it takes longer to reach my goal than I thought
I will not let my scale decide my mood
I will use my scale as a tool
I will not fall of the wagon
If I do, I will jump back on the second it happens...not on Monday or tomorrow.

I started this blog at 221 lb and I am now 189. Wow...a loss of 32 lbs and a total loss of 66 lbs from my highest weight. I weigh less today than I have in over 10 years (maybe 15).

Congrats to me!

Nom Nom Nom! January 9, 2013 *203.2

I weighed in at 203.2 lbs today!  Excuse me while I do my happy dance...happy dance, happy dance, happy dance...you have to use your imagination a little. Picture something uncoordinated and totally uncool and thats probably what it looks like.

I love cruising the internet for new recipes. I hardly ever try them, but I like to salivate over them. Since I have started my diet, I have actually been trying new to me cooking. I ran across this site  Herbivoracious the other day, and I am in love! Like seriously! Nom nom nom. Some of the ingredients are totally unfamiliar but I look them up and see if its something that can be substituted or not.

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I went out again last night to my local Walmart, and I bought myself a pair of jeans. They were a couple of sizes smaller than my other pair. Needless to say I am very happy and proud of myself.

I also sat down and planned my meals for the rest of the week, using a menu planner that I pulled off of fit to the finish. After that was done, I went grocery shopping from the list I made. This is the first time I have ever done this. Seriously. I normally walk around aimlessly and pick whatever is on sale. I went in with a plan and left with all that I went in for.

I am now going to go cook something and freeze it.

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Rainbow Salad

K...done cooking for now. I made a spaghetti sauce (pureed veggies hidden inside), a Rainbow Salad, Shrimp Salsa (which will be my supper tonight). I have also put some Lima beans to soak. I have never cooked those kinds of beans so should be interesting.  There is an interesting recipe on the package that I think I may try. It calls for tomatoes/cheese/onions...hmmm.


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Ugh, I am eating my Shrimp Salsa, and I remember....TMI (no poops). Oh well. I have two huge bags of  shrimp from Costco, I gotta eat 'em. I just have to realize that it normally adversely affects my daily weigh ins. I will eat some extra prunes tonight.

Shrimp Salsa

I went for a nice walk tonight. It was kind of chilly but still a nice walk. I have been slowly adding time to my walks. I am up to 30 minutes, and more than half of the walk is uphill. I am very proud of myself that I have only been forcing myself to go about half the time. The other half of the time I am happy to go.

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