Another beautiful day in the neighborhood 174.6

Doing good on my restart, and I could not be happier about that! I went for a little walk, worked hard at
work and in life is gooood.

I weighed in at 174 today, but I figure that is wrong. Its funny that just by weighing myself everyday, and eating better, I feel more in control of my life.

Here we go again... 178

Today is Good Friday, and it is a beautiful one too.  Its a good day to take charge of my health again.

I have not been exercising, or keeping an eye on what I eat. Or I should say, I have been watching, but not 'seeing' what I eat. The only thing that I have done right is to keep on weighing myself everyday.

So here I go again!

Too loosy goosy

I had a car accident the other day, and I seriously nearly died. When I got home I immediately went to the fridge. I kept on repeating "all this struggle to loose these last few pounds, does not make me any less dead if I get hit by a car!" So I ate, then ate some more.

My son came home, so of course, I needed to eat some more.

I am alive, and I am happy. I certainly wont be happy if I gain all my weight back. Sooo back the struggle.

I am back, and I am ALIVE!

First, I want to thank every one for all those amazing emails, making sure I was ok... I m not just ok, I am doing great.

An few months ago, I had to make some hard decisions.  I cancelled everything I could (internet), and cut back on everything (food, heat, books, movies, tv) until I could get back on my feet. My son had a hard time with that, so he moved in with my mom.

In January, I got a promotion, a raise and insurance for drugs and dental. Thank God!

As of today I have internet, cable, phone, and most important my son has come back home!

I did not reach my 2013 goal of losing 100 lbs. I was ok with cutting everything down to the bare minimum, but I missed my kid. I have to be honest, by the time Christmas came around I had gained close to 15 lbs back.

In January, I kicked myself in the ass and I lost it all again. I weigh 170 lbs and I am goood!

Once again, returning from the Dark Side 176.0

Sigh...

I am back from The Dark Side, and I am tired.

The phrase The Dark Side means different things to me. The first of course is reference to Darth Vader and the Dark Side! I am a movie nerd and I love that series.  So when I started really working on my mental health I started calling my depression The Dark Side. I feel like Darth Vader, full of dark thoughts, but basically just a lost soul.

Needless to say, I gained a little back, but in general I practiced maintenance.