Frustrating

I have lost over 80 lbs. I have been walking every day for over 30 days now. Many times more than twice a day! My legs are getting harder, and I am walking at a much faster pace. Yeah me!

My scale still does not show much difference. I fluctuate around 173-175 lbs. Oh well. My clothes feel better.

I saw myself in a mirror yesterday. Ugh! I was sitting down, so all the rolls were rolling...

Though I feel better, look better...I still look overweight. My outsides do not match my insides.

I drink green smoothies, and walk everyday. I Dont drink pop, dont eat junk food. I dont eat anything white (sugar, flour, processed food), yet I still look fat.

I need to lose some more.

Its working!

I have been making a huge, I mean HUGE effort to walk everyday. I get up earlier if I need to, to get in at least one walk in.

I also have been drinking green smoothies, and really watching what I eat.

So I am happy to announce, I am down to 176 again! Nearly 10 lbs.

Another beautiful day in the neighborhood 174.6

Doing good on my restart, and I could not be happier about that! I went for a little walk, worked hard at
work and in life is gooood.

I weighed in at 174 today, but I figure that is wrong. Its funny that just by weighing myself everyday, and eating better, I feel more in control of my life.

I am back, and I am ALIVE!

First, I want to thank every one for all those amazing emails, making sure I was ok... I m not just ok, I am doing great.

An few months ago, I had to make some hard decisions.  I cancelled everything I could (internet), and cut back on everything (food, heat, books, movies, tv) until I could get back on my feet. My son had a hard time with that, so he moved in with my mom.

In January, I got a promotion, a raise and insurance for drugs and dental. Thank God!

As of today I have internet, cable, phone, and most important my son has come back home!

I did not reach my 2013 goal of losing 100 lbs. I was ok with cutting everything down to the bare minimum, but I missed my kid. I have to be honest, by the time Christmas came around I had gained close to 15 lbs back.

In January, I kicked myself in the ass and I lost it all again. I weigh 170 lbs and I am goood!

I have lost 85 pounds!...so far September 25, 2013 171.2

I have lost 85 lbs so far! Yippee!







No one, (other than my family) says anything about noticing my weight loss. That was until yesterday. I had a couple of my regular customers come up to me and say something like 'Holy crap have you lost alot of weight!' to 'Holy crap you look good!'

Me on my birthday 170

Me at my highest weight 255?

Thank you thank you thank you!

Happy Birthday to Me!! September 18, 2013 172

Happy Birthday to me, Happy Birthday to ME!

Peace Lily

I turned 4? yesterday! My mom wanted to buy me some clothes, but I want to wait til Christmas. So she bought me a Peace Lily plant instead. It is huge! I absolutely adore it!

I ended up spending nearly the whole day with her. Shopping for my plant, and visiting memere (my grandmother), then hanging at her house. It was while we were there she wanted me to try on some old clothes that I had left there when I was younger. I didnt want to, because I was sure everything would be too small. UGH! Anyhoo...I tried them on...and they fit, or were too BIG!

R. and I went over for super and it was nice and relaxing evening.  My mom is so proud of what I have done so far that she supports my diet in any and every way that she can. She got me a veggie pizza (2 small slices) and a chocolate cupcake for my birthday cake. She also bought no sugar ice cream. How awesome is she! I ended up being sick as a dog later though. My body is so not used to any fatty food that it did not react well. I figure that is a good thing. Its like a built in seat belt or something. It not half as fun to eat something fattily delish if you are going to be sick after!

So I weighed myself this morning, and I came in at 172. Yippee! I should be able to make my goal of 170 before the end of the month. Not sure though since I should be having a period soon. That always makes things a little interesting.

Oh! Nearly forgot...R. bought me a pair of Chuck Taylors for my birthday. I think my son having a job ROCKS!

Busy busy busy September 9, 2013 174.0

I weighed in at 174.0 today. At this rate I should be able to make my goal of 170 by the end of the month. I have been super strict on my diet plan, and it is paying off! The only problem is was how starved I was yesterday. I eat anywhere between 1200 to 1500 cals a day. Well within my dietary needs. I eat more when I work really hard at work, and less when I am lazy.

I ended up being pretty proud of myself yesterday too. I was starved, but I still made good food choices and did not cave into my food urges.

My mom invited us over for supper and she made roast beef (unbelievably delish) and corn on the cob. I did a quick cal count, and realized there was no way I could fit in her roast beef and corn. So I made up a tuna fish salad with lots of veggies and brought that over. I ate that instead of her meat and had some corn.

I bet you wonder why I didnt just eat her roast beef? Well I cant stop at 3 oz. Nope nope nope. Especially when I had been starving all day, and I did not want to test my willpower. Good Madijo!

I always associate my mom's house with food. I always, always eat there. I mean I Usually over eat! I stopped going for awhile because I could not stop myself from snacking. Now I go, but I raid her fruit instead of all her junk food.

Yes yes, I should stop associating her with food, but I decided to compromise. Slowly but surely, I eat less and less there. I no longer have this overwhelming urge to over eat or stab myself in the eye and leave.

My mom and I have a love/uncomfortable/hate/stressful/love relationship. As we both get older, the love is coming out more. The way I dealt with all those negative emotions was to eat. Which I did, as often as I could.

I am no longer Obese! August 8, 2013 *180.5 lbs

I weighed in at 180.5 lbs today. Obviously that is wrong. So I measured myself instead. I lost some inches, which is really cool. Another bit of good news. I am officially just overweight! I am no longer obese.